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Oh, Yeah? Observe THIS.
You know how some people need to learn to get in touch with their emotions? I’m definitely not one of those people. I know exactly how I feel ALL THE TIME.
But now that I’ve been meditating and getting my yoga on, I’ve picked up a new trick: observing my emotions. It’s a fascinating way to recognize a feeling without becoming beholden to it. This morning, I turned to Dave and said with some curiosity in my voice, “I feel so… irritable right now.” It’s refreshing to experience the irritation as separate from me. That way, the whiny emotion gets the attention it wants, but I don’t get mired in the muck along with it while it throws a tantrum.
Given how well that worked, I’m inspired to share the other feelings I’m observing in myself today. Enjoy.
Today I Feel…
Unattractive. My fingernails need attention, my roots need dying, and I desperately need my split ends trimmed.
Chubby. No need to elaborate, I’m sure.
Tired. I have hormone poisoning and my sleep’s been jacked up and my thoughts churn all night and I’m ready for a weekend of committed lounging.
Rushed. Between wrapping up corporate overlords’ work and juggling personal stuff, I’m always always always behind. Always.
Over-sugared. I might have eaten too many Dove dark chocolates yesterday and today. Full disclosure: I also ate red and white frosting WITH MY FINGERS off a giant chocolate chip cookie that someone got for Valentine’s Day and left in the corporate overlords’ breakroom.
Disappointed. I succumbed to breakroom sugar.
Weak. Strength training was less than stellar this morning, and I skipped my cashout because my attitude sucked.
Frustrated. On my first set of kettlebells swings during my morning workout, I wrenched my back, now I’m walking funny, and I feel like I want to lie on the floor with my knees pulled into my chest. For hours. In a dark room. Listening to Barry Manilow. Wimpering to myself.
Annoyed. Tomorrow, I have to drive 3 1/2 hours to Houston for a 2-hour client meeting in which I will speak for approximately 10 minutes, after which I will get back in the car and drive 3 1/2 hours back to Austin.
Anxious. A tremendously awesome and intimidating batch of emails and phone calls have been popping up lately with all kinds of interesting opportunities and offers and frexciting ideas.
Grateful. I have Dave and Smudge and a wonderful family and all of you and a new life that starts in just a few days and I don’t know what’s going to happen next but Jane Eyre finds a way to roll with it and stay true to herself and I will, too.
Optimistic. I have an array of very good/interesting problems.
Thirsty. All of the ice in my water glass has melted, but I’m exhausted by the idea of schlepping to the kitchen for a refill.
Irresponsible. I usually ride the bus, so I forgot that I drove today, which means I also forgot to feed my parking meter, so now — on the eve-eve of being self-employed — I potentially just spent $20 on a parking ticket because I’m a dumbass.
Lame. See above.
How are you today?