A Donut and My "Donut"… Mission 17 II: The Reckoning

What was the first thing I saw when I walked into the corporate overlords’ lair this morning? One of my co-workers (a good person who I like a lot) eating a Krispy Kreme donut.


Here’s the thing, people: I’ve gained a little weight. I don’t know how much because I’ve banished the scale. But I can feel it. Just a little extra donut around my middle. My clothes still fit, but not quite the same.

I’m both freaking out and not freaking out. And that’s an unfamiliar sensation.

Freaking out: I don’t like it! As y’all know, my desire is for the trend to go the other way. All of this sleeping and training and eating like a cavewoman is primarily to get me to lean superhero-ness. Mission 17 was put on hold by my busted thyroid, but I haven’t given up on it.

Not freaking out: For the first time ever in my life, I’m looking at this weight gain very objectively. I didn’t gain weight because I’m weak or lazy or a bad person. I’m carrying a few extra pounds because as my thyroid pooped out, I cut back on my training schedule to accommodate the lethargy. Rather than working out five or six times a week, I’ve been averaging three or four. I’ve been eating clean, but I didn’t decrease my intake when I cut back on training – and I guess it’s finally caught up with me.

What I’m going to do about it: I’ll tell you what I’m NOT going to do… I’m not going to slash my calories, put myself on a punishment plan, and despair.

Nope. That’s the old me.

Instead, I’m going to stick with my nutrition plan and get back to training five times a week. Because – and here’s the good news – I think (I hope, I hope, I hope) the thyroid hormones are finally kicking in. I’m in my eighth week at this dose, and my energy for the last week has been pretty damn good. I felt totally “normal,” i.e., energetic and determined, during the Bataan Memorial Death March, and I bounced back pretty quickly afterward.

Next week, I’ll share plan for retrieving the leaner version of my torso – and for continuing my quest toward superhero-ness (a.k.a., Mission 17 II: The Reckoning). Guess what?! There’s going to be an opportunity for you to join me in your own superhero-ness quest.

Neat, right?!

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  • Aaron and Marcy says:

    It's so encouraging to start feeling closer to normal again! I hope I can join you on your mission. We have a hawaiian vacation coming up (4 weeks!) and we want to be able to enjoy all the hiking oppoprtunities so we've been training, but it's slow progress getting my strength and energy back. I've also made progress on not comparing with what I used to be able to do. Just have to focus on the progress.

  • ~Melisa says:

    "I'll tell you what I'm NOT going to do… I'm not going to slash my calories, put myself on a punishment plan, and despair.
    Nope. That's the old me."

    AMEN, Mel! Cause we all know that plan sucks and screws us over in the long run.

    Go get it! 🙂

  • Melissa 'Melicious' Joulwan says:

    Marcy, hang in there, girl. It's a long haul. Be kind to yourself — push when you can, rest when you need to. Your vacation is going to be AWESOME! Remind us when you're about to leave.

    Melisa, I've been having some very stern talks with myself. I have to admit, my initial thought pattern was, "I need to cut back on what I'm eating!" but I know that's bullshit. I need to keep eating clean and get back to lifting heavy things, running once a week, and doing my CrossFit workouts with as much intensity as I can muster.

    Plus, that will all be really fun!

  • Stephanie Vincent says:

    AWESOME Mel!! really awesome, not falling into old ways of being. i was just telling someone the other day, I eat clean, I work my body, whatever weight or size that gets my body to is okay with me. I am not going to deprive myself, to get thinner. yeah to kicking the mother f'in scale to the curb!

  • Tricia says:

    I cannot tell you how much I needed to read this post *right now*! I've been doing all the right things, but this cursed mononucleosis has kept me from the gym. Eating clean only gets you so far and I was starting to freak out about how my clothes fit (or don't fit, for that matter.) You've totally motivated me to keep on, keepin' on. Can't wait to join you in the superhero challenge.

  • Melissa 'Melicious' Joulwan says:

    Tricia! Hang in there, sister. It can be SO hard to have a body that won't cooperate with good intentions. Mono! That sucks. I hope you're feeling awesome again soon. We're all in this together — don't despair. And write to me if you feel blue or stuck — we can commiserate.

    Superhero challenge is going to be fun and I hope, get our spirits and our bodies back on track.